Resting in Abstinence

My name is Charlie, and I'm a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

I'm learning to rest and trust. I don't freak out when I haven't lost weight in a given day. I just keep going, one day at a time. I feel frustrated sometimes that it's not going as quickly as I want it to, but I'm also aware that my choices are not perfect, and that I'm living a little more generously. I have a glass of wine or two in the evening. I don't weigh and measure my portions. But I'm living this way. I don't have the temptations to throw it all away. I know that the decision to shoot for being different when I get to XXXXX is helping. It helps to have a goal, a destination.

And today I'm 202.2. That's the lowest I've been since March 25. And it's down 33.8 pounds from my all-time high of 236 a few years back. It's 13.6 pounds down from my most recent high of 215.8 on May 14. Good to be back in the game.

Slow Going

My name is Charlie, and I'm a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

I'm frustrated. But I'm not being very hardcore in my HOW plan. In fact, I'm doing such a cheat-filled version, I feel like I'm gaining weight. I'm not. I'm actually down. But I have to get more strict. I will be happier.

It's all about portions now. Small portions. I can do this. Surrender.

A New Destination

My name is Charlie, and I'm a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

Well, I'm on Day Ten. Thank you, God... I'm on a new path because I have something to live for, something to lose for. I got back "on the wagon" when I told the church in XXXX I was coming for sure. And I'm dead set on arriving there significantly thinner. I can't wait to see the looks and hear the comments when I arrive 40 pounds lighter. Or something like that.