Friday, February 19, 2010

Needs

Charlie here, compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

I need:
  • To focus. I am so ADD. I flit from one thing to the next. I have multiple windows open on my computer at all times. I'm always in the middle of ten things and I don't do any of them well. I feel frantic and unfocused.
  • To rest. I have been surviving on 5-6 hours of sleep a night. I can hardly get out of bed in the mornings.
  • To connect with God. I'm reading through the bible in a year. It's amazing that I've made it to February 19 without skipping one single day. But you should see how I read... skimming, rushed, not allowing the text to speak to me.
  • To connect with my wife. I miss her.
  • To get to a meeting. I'm going tomorrow morning.
  • A sponsor. I have never had one, officially, in OA.
  • A reasonable plan of eating.
  • To stay off my scale. I weighed this morning, and I'm going to stay off of it now until March 19.
  • To figure out a way to focus more on my studies and less on distractions.
To start, tonight I will do homework and try to be to sleep at a reasonable time, then tomorrow morning I'll go to the meeting and we'll go from there. One day at a time.

For now, my food plan is just this: Only eat three meals a day. No snacks. That's all I am willing to do for now. I'll discuss with my sponsor and hopefully have a plan in the next two days.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Progress. Not perfection.