Saturday, January 16, 2010

Day Forty-Six

Hey Everybody, I'm Charlie, a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

I'm skipping a meeting RIGHT NOW as I type, and I'm not happy about it. My wife had to go to work on a Saturday morning, so I'm with kids. It's OK, I guess. It gives me a little unstructured time, for which I'm grateful.

I'll get some blogging done and respond to some emails.

Uh, did I mention it's Day 46? Woo-hoo!

And I've lost 14 pounds from my high of 227 on November 29.

Thank You, God!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Day Forty-Two

Hi, I'm Charlie, a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

Really grateful for 42 days of abstinence today! It's been a long time since I've had the willingness to stay on-plan for this long. And it's still just a day at a time.

Today, in fact, was pretty "slippery." I've been falling into a habit of eating things for the simplicity. For instance, I'll have a can of chili with some cheese and fat-free sour cream, and that's it. It's easy, it's fast. But frankly, it's too many calories. It's no wonder my weight loss has been slow. Today I "cheated" and ate some quiche. It was in the fridge, and it was easy. But I ate the pie crust part. That's flour. Not a ton, but not what's technically on my plan.

So I want to commit to getting more serious about the particulars. My breakfasts are still great, but I need to eat more greens/salads and watch the caloric intake to some degree... at least a little better.

Grace to me. I'm not going to beat myself up, but I'm going to pray for willingness to release this.

The meeting on Saturday morning was great. I'm thankful for people who are in recovery with me. I want to ask one of the women to sponsor me. I hope to talk to her next Saturday morning.

Work and family life is a little strained right now, but I'm trying to just take things a day at a time. I'm realizing (again) the value in repetition. I'm reading my bible every day, even if I'm not completely engaged. It's better than nothing. I'm planning to read through in a year. I think I've mentioned that before. But I'm on Day 12, and that's a pretty big deal for me. You'd think that a pastor might be better at this whole bible thing, but I'm just a human. In need of grace like everyone else.

Peace out!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Day Thirty-Seven

My name is Charlie. I'm a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

Just want to celebrate today. I'm doing it. One day at a time. I am doing well! Thank You, God!

I'm SLOWLY but surely losing the weight. I'll go to a meeting Saturday morning if I can. I really want to...

Breathing deeply and grateful tonight.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Day Thirty-Six

Hi, I'm Charlie, a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

Haven't had much time to update this, but I want to get back in the habit of posting something, anything, every day. I think it helps a lot.

So, for today, I'm still abstinent, even through a trip and a funeral and being with my family of origin!

Thank God. More later!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Day Thirty-Two

Hi, I'm Charlie, a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

I totally slept through my OA meeting this morning. Woke up at 9, and it starts at 8:30. Oh well, I guess I needed the sleep. Grateful for that. Tomorrow morning will come EARLY. I always get up at 5am on Sundays. And then tomorrow I have to fly up to my mom and dad's house for my grandpa's funeral on Monday. I'll have to fly and then drive for 3 hours. I'm gonna be pulling in there around 1am. Then the funeral's at noon on Monday.

God, give me the serenity...

My mom and dad are compulsive overeaters. I don't think I have ever been successful on my plan when I've been around them. I have to do it this time. For me.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Day Thirty-One

Hi, I'm Charlie, a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

I'm grateful for 31 days now of abstinence. Feeling good. I have lost an amazing 14 pounds since starting... Granted, I was really heavy from Thanksgiving, but still...

My grandpa died yesterday, and I'm flying home this weekend for the funeral. I'm sad, but grateful for a long life, well-lived.

Tomorrow, a meeting. My first in a few weeks. Excited to be back. Still need a sponsor. Still need to start working the steps.