Monday, May 17, 2010

Time Will Tell

Hi, I'm Charlie, a compulsive overeater.

::Hi, Charlie!::

Yes, dear friends, it's been a hell of a couple months. I've been in the middle of an enormous relapse. I blamed it on everything. My seminary class, my job, my big family, everything. (See my last post, right before Easter.)

Whatever. I made myself go back to OA on Saturday morning. It was SO good to be back. I had to ring the doorbell cuz I got there a few minutes late, and of course who sould come around the corner to let me in but my sponsor... I haven't even called or emailed her in months! She gave me a hug and welcomed me back. I'm grateful.

Tonight I finished my final exam for my class. I'm done now until the fall. I have a little (OK, a lot) more time now. What will I do with it? Maybe I'll dive into my stepwork, which I intend to do here on the blog, at least a good bit of it.

Maybe I'll stay on plan. Maybe I'll get better. Maybe I'll surrender to God, one day at a time. Maybe I'll remember how bad relapse feels. Maybe I'll keep reaching out for help. Maybe I'll come back and post here regularly. Maybe I'll be grateful for the support and encouragement that you readers and Twitter followers regularly give me. Maybe I'll give back.

Time will tell. God help me.

3 comments:

The Binge Diary said...

Welcome back!

Ms. PJ Geek said...

Glad your back. I returned to OA and accepted a white chip last week. One day at a time..if that's too much. one moment at a time..hang in there

Charlie O. Edinburgh said...

Thanks, you guys... I'm sitting down right now to work on some 1st Step stuff... I appreciate your support.