Charlie, compulsive overeater.
I struggle with black/white thinking. I don't want to do it unless it's perfect. That's why I slip again and again and then say "what the hell" and dive into relapse.
Yesterday I ate a "perfect" breakfast and a "perfect" lunch. Then I worked out... met a friend for racquetball. Good, good...
Then, my family went out to Outback Steakhouse. First I had bread. Then bacon cheese fries. Then a beer.
Now, is that a slip? Do I start over? Normally I would say YES and dive into dessert. Last night I said NO and didn't have any dessert even though my family had cheesecake and brownies and ice cream. Then this morning I had a great breakfast and went to an OA meeting. Then I had a great lunch, and now I'm drinking black coffee and writing this post.
That's not perfection, but it is progress.
What do you think? Am I still abstinent? Do I "start over" on my days or what?